Sooooo limited. Sooooo short-sighted. Sooooo entrapped in our own humanity. That's us. At least, that's me! I do not consider myself an observant person, and too much input overwhelms me. I can't see the tree because there is a forest in front of me. Consequently, I often operate under unconscious assumption. Fortunately, the Holy Spirit is always working on break-through moments for me, when He shines His light in a new way on something I considered an old lesson.
Like Psalm 139:17-18. Yeah, yeah, I get it already, ya? You think about me a lot, Lord, and that's very nice. When I journal during my devotions, I write down some of the things You've spoken to my heart, and they comfort and direct me. That has happened so often, I've lost count.
But right there my thinking is already askew. I've been inadvertently functioning as if You are only thinking of me at that moment. Like You showed up at our appointment; You faithfully do. Oh, Lord! How do You manage to not get insulted by how I think about You?!?! You're trying to say so much more!
Here's what You're REALLY saying:
You think about me ALL THE TIME.
You are never NOT thinking about me.
You do this for billions of people on the planet at all times.
I don't get that; I don't have to.
It's the wow factor.
You can do that because You're God.
I don't get it because I'm not.
All I know is You have shown Yourself to be constantly intimately aware of the emotions and confusions I hide from myself. You crack this nut open again and again, undeniably. You are so far ahead of the curve... Wait. You created the curve.
I have to agree with David:
"Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is high, I cannot attain it." Psalm 139:6
The Lord has to dismantle the dividing wall between Him and me continually. He knows I simply cannot get my brain around Him and He is okay with that.
Thank You, Lord!!!
